"Let It Go"

Letting go. Letting someone or something go. What do you immediately feel when you let someone go? Well, usually you feel hurt, grief, loneliness; you think of every moment spent with that person. You then go through a stage of regret. You want them back even though you know it was the right decision of letting them go. All you want to feel is relief from this burden, from this mindset, you want a pause button on life. So you cope, you cope with your coping mechanism. Maybe it's eating too much, eating too little, crying till you can't anymore, shopping too much, sleeping around with others, getting high, cutting yourself, taking pills, getting drunk; whatever it may be. How long until it becomes a daily habit? What do you do when that's no longer helping you cope? Well, that's what I'm about to go into detail about, from personal experience. I personally had to let go a relationship. I began to cope by not eating, starving myself; because I felt I deserved the pain. I then began believing lies about myself, like I'm not worth it, I hurt everyone I love. I began to doubt. I then added crying/moping into my coping habit. I never wanted to do anything. I wanted to lay down and cry till I couldn't anymore.

Then it hit me like a pile of bricks, how was all my crying and not eating making me feel better? How is getting high going to solve the problem? How is getting drunk going to help you? The truth is, it's not. It never will. You might be asking yourself " Then what will help me?" Well to let something go, solve the problem, you have to go to the Lord. The Lord says in the spirit of heaviness, put on the garment of praise. To let something go, you have to come to a realization that you are truly not alone, that God just wants you to draw nearer to his freedom and love He has for you. Next you might be thinking, "I've tried praying to the Lord, I've tried to give it to Him; but nothing changed." Did you truly give it to Him or is there a part of you that still wants to hold on?

There is a song lyric that states- "It may look like I'm surrounded but I'm surrounded by You." You may feel surrounded by the doubt that the Lord will actually do anything. It might be that you are surrounded by the lies, the coping method, or the feeling of loneliness. What's stopping you from letting it go? Because my love, the Lord is trying to open up a new door while you're still holding onto a closed door. You have to be willing to let go. Personally, I used to believe that the Lord abandoned me, and that what I needed to let go was worth more than what God has in store for me.

Questions to ask yourself: What's keeping you from letting go? Do you truly believe the Lord will help you? Why are you doubting letting go? How are you fighting your battles?

Is it the rush you get from being high that you can't let go?

Because my love, that doesn't last. You're getting peace from something that runs out, while you could have God's love for you that never runs out.

Is it getting drunk that you can't let go of?

Because my love, you lose control while you're drunk, you wake up with a hangover, in pain; but when you let it go you wake up with the feeling of being set free, being overwhelmed with the love of God.

Is it not eating that you can't let go of?

because Child of God, putting yourself in pain because you believe these lies, isn't what the Lord wants for you. You were and are created perfectly in His eyes. Give the pain, the worthlessness to Him, His arms are open.

Is it the self-harm that you can't let go of?

Because my dear, in Psalms 139:14, it states that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. No one else's words matter.

Is it the sleeping around/going from person to person that you can't get rid of?

Because my love, the satisfaction you feel you are getting isn't long lasting. You are okay living by yourself. You don't need to feel like you have to have someone. Are you loving yourself for you? Hopping from girl to girl/guy to guy is it satisfying to you? Why are you doing it? Are you afraid to be alone? You don't need a relationship to be happy, to feel loved. You are worthy of a magnificent love.

So after all that being said are you willing to let it go? Are you willing to be set free? If you have any further questions or ever need to talk, DM me on Instagram: noelled16. I'm always free to talk.

I love you. You are not alone.